Dear Diary,
Yes, it's been a long time since I've updated because I was just so busy over the past month. Diaryland was probably the last thing on my mind lately.
I've been working in school hard enough and I feel like my grades aren't getting anywhere! I feel confused for the most part because I have a hard time concentrating in class. And I also need to focus and listen, because I'm either:
a.)falling asleep
b.)talking
c.)day dreaming
It's time for me to cut those habits out and mean some buisness. Because next semester there won't be any of that. I'm also trying to stay after school or something to get more help. I hate Biology it is so fucking stupid. I have a Test tomorrow and I don't think I will do well (which isn't much of a suprise)listening to the teacher's voice is like listening to nails on a chalkboard. I think she needs to explain herself well in order to have my undivided attention. Because I don't understand shit lol. Maybe I'm just going to study what I know, and kick ass on tomorrow's test.
Over the past month of November alot has happened. I finally went to Georgia for Thanksgiving to have dinner at my cousin's house. Her house is huge! It's like a mansion with 7 or 10 bedrooms! It's beautiful in Georgia, and I can't wait to move there when I graduate highschool. The airplane flight was nerve wracking for me because I hate airplanes and the awful "air" feeling I get in my stomache lol.
I can't believe Christmas is this Saturday! I've waited for such a long time and it's finally come. I found out in November that Alex likes me, his sister told me at church that he thinks I'm pretty and he likes me too. Awww how sweet of him!! But I still have a crush on Antwan. I saw him at church on Sunday and he was sexy as ever. All my friends know that I like him (because I told them). I've had multiple of dreams that me and him were dating. I felt like the luckiest girl in the world! lol. But oh well, he's 17 and a junior and I'm 15 and a sophmore. What is a poor girl to do??
Next year in 2005 my Febuary birthday will be here! And I will be 16! I will finally get a job over the summer and get some cash! ka-ching!$$$$ and learn how to drive (thank god) and also to have freedom and privacy in my life (as soon as I start dating). I was either thinking of having a serious relationship with Alex because we both will be the same age then. Because he's already 16 and will be 17 in April. But I like him as a friend, and momentarily my "like" will turn into "love" <3
I need to do some Christmas shopping for my friends and get Christmas cards for them (and my family). I don't know what I'll get for Christmas, I don't really think I deserve anything because of my undecent grades. But that's life.
Alright, I need to take my studying seriously now because I have 2 tests tomorrow (English, and Biology). Need to have good grades. No school Friday and then X-mas break!! Come back to school on January 3rd and then hell arrives with more work to do lol.
I'll make sure I write soon! (if I don't remind me in my notes or guestbook! lol)
Love,
Candy<3